Monday, February 20, 2006

Where will she be . . . Tomorrow . . .

I just want to state for the record there is NO reason for this world, this life, to be this hard. I'm so damaged from nearly a decade with Earl that I can't even walk around the block by myself, have not been outside the house without someone with me in almost a year, and I'm working hard on healing.

The ongoing saga with the Social Security Administration? Not good, they are bound and determined to have me sue them into the stone age and I'm ready to oblige. They are discriminating against me and have trampled my civil rights in the some major ways. They have also exposed me to additional danger for no other reason than the are hideous, vile, creatures who lack even a fiber of decency or sensitivity in their heartless, soulless bodies. Mind you that's the nicest thing I can think to say about them. Oy!!!

So where will I be? Probably same old place, same old life, dreaming of just a little more. Now thankfully the dreaming has morphed into a little bit of serious thought. One of these days I'm going to be able to leave the house, and drive to places I've always wanted to see. Go hiking around Sedona (and mayhap heal some too) and soak up the history, energy, views, and peace of the wide open desert. One of these days I'm going to buy a used minivan, set it up to go camping, and see the country one campground at a time. One of these days I'll finally leave the east coast behind me for good and go home to Denver or perhaps find someplace new like Arizona. Time will tell.


Amy K. said...

"someplace new like Arizona." See? See?!!? In a booming deity-type voice, "YOU WERE MEANT TO BE HERE. BWAH HA HA HA!"

Samantha said...

Wow I'd forgotten I'd written that. Sure was a while ago, the essential problem remains. Being able to afford moving anywhere. I'll get that done someday!