. . . considering how young she was.
I'm five years older right now than my Mom was when she died, which is such a strange thing to think of, let alone say. When I was growing up, years before she left the physical plane, she did her best to impart to me, wisdom that was well beyond her years. Since my Mom was one of the most important people in my life, and because I wanted to grow up to be just like her, I took what she said seriously. I lost her way too young, and it took me so long to get where I am, that I still don't feel as old and wise as my Mom always seemed to me when I was little. Even now that I'm five years older than she was when I lost her.
My generally bright and sunny disposition I got from her. Her optimism and belief that deep down, people are good, and that magic is alive and well in the 'verse I've taken with me. For her the fact that magic was real and worked, wasn't even a question, and while it was never talked about openly, it sure was used.
So she was smart, cool, and the best part of my youth.
In other news, I went back to the "Y" today and did 7 miles in 24 Minutes. Today, I felt like I accomplished something because I could feel it this time. Then again I found out the machine goes up to at least level 13, which made me work a bit harder. Usually the day after I work out, I feel it as my muscles adjust, after the last time I didn't feel anything, even the day after. So hopefully, tomorrow I'll feel it too. It'll mean I'm doing something right. Or at least something that's challenging my muscles. Tune in tomorrow for an update.
I know I'm going to miss my mother when she's gone. I already miss her when I don't see her for a period of time.
ReplyDeleteDang, 7 miles in 24 minutes...girl you hauling ass! (At least that's what we used to say in the 80s...sorry!) It's a good statement!
It's funny, I missed my Mom for many years. Other people I've lost I've always been able to sense around me, and they've visited my dreams. For the longest time, my Mom was not one of them. Then, when I started letting myself feel, when I started dealing with my past, and trying to move forward, my Mom showed up. Took me a while that I'd been kinda shutting her out as part of trying to live the lie so to speak.
ReplyDeleteThen one day I was having this party with friends and family all around and I ducked into the kitchen and there she was. It had been so long. Now she's back in my life, and we've been spending time together. Growing up, my Mom knew my secret, and when I was young, and my Dad at work I got to be me. I used to spend so much time with her. So now, we've had days where we're just going out and having a day together. Lunch, shopping, walking, talking and as we did all those years ago, spending time in the kitchen.
I don't miss her so much now, because well, I get to spend time with her. It's all very cool to be honest, and very much like the Nexus in Star Trek Generations. We get to go wherever we want, and spend time together.
Oddly enough, in the 80s we called it that too! Yeah, it is a good statement. What I found so interesting was looking at the speedometer periodically and it was showing me things in the range of 18-20 miles an hour kind of thing. Just didn't think I had that in me after all these years, so yeah, haulin!
What a lovely tribute to your mom.
ReplyDeleteI'll bet your muscles are saying hello today! Keep up the good work!
You'll be feeling it and then some!
ReplyDeleteProud of you for doing it!
I'm 53 now and lost my Dad at 56, so that haunts me a bit. I'm glad my grandkids are older now than my sons were when he died!
I'm glad you had a good Mom!
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