Music, Lyrics and Life

Well so far today has been more productive than I'd planned, but way less traumatic than three years ago. Earlier today I was thinking of Alan, while I ate a quick dinner. I had a yen for a bacon cheeseburger from Burger King, and on the way there I stopped to fill up the car so that I wouldn't need to do it on the morrow. So, with the air cold, heavy and a big of icy rain falling, the gas smell lingered in the air, and in the main cabin on Jumper One. So the smell of of gas, and food mixed some which of course made me think of Alan and the Kittyhawk. There are worse ways to spend a quiet dinner on Christmas Eve, Eve.

Back a the house, dinner and some brief last minute shopping for some wine done, I pointed the nose east and took her back to the barn. Nice smooth return leg, and I brought her in with nary a scratch. Icy roads, freezing temps, and darkness did nothing to mar the trip. I grew up in New England, what we're having now doesn't even count as weather.

Back in the barn, I caught the tail end of the Faith Hill Christmas special. During it, I heard, I felt, Gavin Rossdale singing "Love Remains The Same" and was just swept away.

"A thousand times I've seen you standing
Gravity like lunar landing
You make me want to run till' I find you
I shut the world away from here
I drift to you, you're all I hear
As everything we know fades to black

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same

I find a place where we escape
Take you with me for the space
The city buzz sounds just like a fridge
I walk the streets through seven bars
I have to find just where you are
The faces seem to blur
They're all the same

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same

So much more to say
So much to be done
Don't you trick me out
We shall overcome
It's all left still to play

We should've had the sun
Could have been inside
Instead we're over here

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
Too much time too long defending
You and I are done pretending

I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
Everything will change

I, oh I,
I wish this could last forever
I, oh I,
As if we could last forever

Love remains the same
Love remains the same"

Wow, just wow. I felt like he was speaking to me, to that choice I had to make five years ago this month. The choice to finally live an honest, true, authentic life instead of the ongoing attempt to be the person the world expected.

So now down to the basement to run a quick wash, and I'll be good to go on the day!